If you remember high school physics, you might remember resistors.
Resistors systematically step down electricity as it runs through a circuit. You see, most things cannot handle a full charge of electricity. You know the saying “blowing a circuit?” This is what happens when there is too much electricity. Things stop working. Light bulbs burn out. Computers have to reset.
The same is true for humans.
Except it is our stories that are doing the resisting.
We think we get tired and overwhelmed from effort, but have you ever noticed how your energy is when you are doing something you love?
It feels unlimited. Because, essentially, it is. Your love releases all that pent up energy that you’ve spent so much of your time resisting.
I have noticed that when I get out of my own way, when I stop acting as a resistor to my own life, I am capable of almost anything.
It’s not because I somehow have more capability or capacity.
Instead, I have redirected my energy from resisting to creating. And I have never blown the circuit—the energy is clean and pure and seeming unlimited.
I’ve begun to notice how much energy it takes to keep me small. To keep me from fully showing up. To convince myself that I shouldn’t fully commit to something.
For 2023, that commitment is to showing up as love.
I discovered in the process of making that commitment that I AM love. I can cover it up, but it takes a lot of energy to cover it up. I am so used to covering it up, to keeping myself small, not wanting to impose, not wanting to see possibilities both for myself and my clients.
Resisting my own infinite love was exhausting. And yet I was afraid to stop. A lifetime of resisting has taken its toll.
My pledge to myself is to stop doing that this year. And to stop letting you do it.
Small may feel safe, but small is actually more tiring than big.
Incremental is more tiring than exponential.
Ordinary is more tiring than extraordinary.
I’m tired of being tired.
How about you?