I got an email from a CEO who I had a two hour conversation with last week.
He decided not to hire me.
A note like this is part of what I do, but it’s always disappointing.
And I can find myself making excuses, or looking on the bright side, or doing any number of things to distract me from the fact that I feel crummy.
I can slip into a spiral where I question my worth, whether I was good enough to be coaching him in the first place, whether I have the qualifications to be doing what I’m doing.
But I come back to my purpose.
I come back to whether I was clear in how I work. Whether I was clear in the potential I saw in the other person.
Sometimes I feel like I was incredibly clear and I still don’t get the job. While disappointing, I can be satisfied that I did everything I could.
Sometimes, though, I feel like I wasn’t clear. Like I wasn’t truly and unabashedly living from my purpose.
And all I can do in that situation is learn, and be more clear, and more bold, the next time.